第八十章、她是谁
最后一班公交车，扯上几乎没什么人了，小雅一直靠在我肩膀，我们带着同一个耳机，里面放着一首熟悉的歌，《tonight i wanna cry》
lone in this house again tonight
i got the tv on,
the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
there#039s pictures of you and i on the walls around me
the way that it was and could have been surrounds me
i#039ll never get over you walkin#039 away
i ve never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
and i thought that bein#039 strong meant never losin your self control
but i m just drunk enough to let go of my pain
to hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes
tonight i wanna cry
would it help if i turned a sad song on
all by myself would sure hit me hard now
that you#039re gone
or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
it#039s gonna hurt bad before it gets better
but i#039ll never get over you by hidin#039 this way
i#039ve never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
and i thought that bein#039 strong meant never losin your self control
but i m just drunk enough to let go of my pain
to hell with my pride, let it fall like rain from my eyes
tonight i wanna cry
听着伤感的音乐，我又想起了当时我们分手的时候，我也是这样，把自己关在房间里，让电视开着，音量调低，喝着啤酒发呆，看着手机里的照片，始终不能接受小雅的离去。我也从未像这样让我的情绪毫无顾忌的流露，因为我一直认为一个坚强的人决不会丧失对自己情绪的控制，但我已经喝了许多酒试图摆脱痛苦，还管得上什么自尊，让泪像雨水一样从涌出来！
但是现在，不同了，看看身边的小雅，在看看我，我们谁都没有变，变化的是时间。我喜欢上了刘晓，而小雅也不顾一切的喜欢上了另一个人。
车停下来了，我的思绪也好像飞到了终点一样，停在了那里！
把小雅安顿在了学校门口的旅馆，我们呆呆的望着棚顶的，望了很久，她不知道在和我说些什么了，我也不知道在说些什么了。
不想说太多丧气话，也不想说太多过去，但是我们在一起这么长时间了，很难免提起过去，我害怕我一张口是就讲述我们在一起的故事，她也害怕。我们就这样，望着天花板，一直望着，直到我听见小雅肚子咕噜噜的叫声。